Have you ever DVR’d a live sporting event? I know it’s not ideal, but sometimes it’s necessary. What I always find fascinating is watching it back, when you already know the outcome, and hearing the commentators. Often they say things that are completely wrong with the result, but of course, they don’t know that yet. I think life is sometimes like that. When you look back at things you might have said or done and knowing now how the future turned out, it’s amazing how wrong we can sometimes be.
My life has been in a bit of flux lately, to say the least. First, I lost my biggest client. Of course initial panic tends to set in, but I was surprisingly calm and luckily I’ve been steadily freelancing ever since. Currently, I’m entertaining several “suitors” to see which gig will be the best long-term fit. But I certainly never expected to be freelancing again at this point in my life.
Then my Mom and her husband moved to Florida. We’re very close and they’re both super close to Mr. Delicious, not-to-mention my babysitters(!), so it’s been an adjustment not having them a car ride away. So if you know of a good babysitter in the Queens area…
Anyway, with this move, I promised them I’d get Mr. Delicious a full size bed, so when they come visit, they can have my room and I can sleep with him. So after selling his bed on Craigslist and a precarious trip to IKEA, he’ll soon have a bigger bed. Once I put it together and the mattress gets delivered, of course. And, because I just can’t do one project at a time, I felt compelled to purge his toys and games and other items he won’t be using anymore, so now my car is overflowing with items to donate. Oh, and I need to rearrange the furniture to make the bed fit and I’m thinking of chucking his area rug…so yeah, my plate is kinda full.
But I think about how when I look back on this time a few months from now, it will seem a distant memory and I’ll be more settled and better for it. Which is what intrigues me about the Memory Project I took on at the beginning of the year. I’m writing down things that happen to me all year long so I can recall them at the end of the year, and look back and reflect. But it will be so interesting to see what’s still resonating and what’s meaningless come December. Men I’ve dated. Will any still be in the picture? Jobs I have now. Will I still have them? CrossFit milestones? Things I struggle with now, will I finally be able to conquer them? Or will my PR’s seem a mere drop in the bucket come December?
We never know where our lives will go and that’s part of the excitement and the fear about living. I’m trying to simply embrace the now and worry about the future, well, never. I’ll let you know how that works out…in a few months.