I’m kind of a control freak. I’m not easy going or laid back. Last minute plans give me hives. In short, I’m a planner. My calendar is my bible. Without things written down weeks in advance I wouldn’t leave the house. A lot of this is due to being separated and being a parent. I need to schedule plans weeks in advance because I only have so many days that I’m free or so many days that I have O. And we’re busy people. Sometimes too much so.
But somehow, I’m not organized or in control of my son’s school schedule. Yes, his sports are all on the calendar but anything having to do with school always seems to sneak up on me. I have no idea why, but I can’t wrap my head around knowing when there are half days or holidays. And it’s stupidity because I have a school calendar on my fridge! But unless I get an email from the local Y about mini-camps for holidays or emails from the PTA, I’m in the dark. And it’s totally my fault. And I’m totally ok with being a laid back mom.
To be fair, some of it might be that I’m not involved with school. I vowed never to attend a PTA meeting and so far, so good. Don’t get me wrong, my son’s education is paramount, but getting involved with the other mostly moms and their minutia doesn’t interest me. I just can’t be in a room where people complain about things that to me, don’t matter. Now, if you want me to get involved in ensuring my child reads, does his homework or holding teacher’s accountable, I’m there in a heartbeat. And I realize this is simplification and not all PTA meetings are minutia, so please recognize the hyperbole here for the sake of being concise. But the truth is I have two jobs, a child and a social life and something’s gotta give.
I’m insanely fortunate to have two flexible jobs which allow me to work from home regularly. So my lackadaisical attitude is probably not helped by the convenience of being able to stay home whenever I need to. For instance, last week we had Election Day, then a school meeting on Thursday morning so I worked from home both days, days I typically head into the office. Then, because I clearly don’t look at a calendar, I needed to work from home today, Veteran’s Day because I thought it would be observed yesterday (!) because aren’t most holidays observed on the Monday? So that was news to me when I booked a trip to Dallas thinking O would miss school yesterday and instead he gets a bonus day off. Oops.
I’m also lucky he’s at an age where he can go to a friend’s house for hours or his friends can come to our place and keep him occupied. And when I tell them I’m on a conference call, they either whisper (which cracks me up) or go in the bedroom to play X-box. I do find my willy-nilly attitude fascinating because it most certainly doesn’t permeate any other areas of my life. Dating especially. I want to be able to go with the flow, I just can’t. And I’ve tried to be easy-peasy but sometimes you just need to accept who you are and go with it.